I was, and still am, extremely happy about the decision.
Now, I am a mother of three: a 10-year-old boy who is obsessed with cosplay and Doctor Who, an 8-year-old little girl who spends her time dressed as Hermoine Granger, and an 18-month-old girl who is a force to be reckoned with.
Add a farm to the mix and it makes for a very busy day.
So it was no surprise that when NaNoWriMo rolled around this year, I had to take a rain check.
While I absolutely love the idea of being able to hammer out a 50,000-word novel in one month, I know that it would be more stress than its worth. Not to mention, the chances of successfully completing it are very low.
I know, I know... I should think positively.
I am... but I'm also thinking rationally.
Have you tried writing with an ADHD toddler? She's a hurricane, a monkey, and a dragon all rolled into one. If I take my eyes off of her for even one second, she climbs up the bar stool onto the counter and throws everything out of the snack cabinet, onto the floor.
Her favorite past time is pouring her juice onto the floor so that she can "clean it up," which means just spreading it around on the floor with whatever bit of fabric she can get her hands on.
When I write, I like to focus. I like to get into my characters' mindset and really dig down deep to see where the story goes. When I get into a groove, I tend to hyper-focus and the world around me dissolves, just a little bit.
But that little bit is just enough for the rampaging toddler to flush her brother's school work down the toilet or to put her juice cup into the trash can.
If she isn't terrorizing the village, she's sitting on my lap, stealing my pens or hammering on my keyboard. She's go, go, go all the time and needs a lot of attention otherwise she gets up to no good.
What does this do for my writing?
It prolongs it. Sometimes I get lucky and I can hammer out 1500-2000 words each day for a few days in a row, but then suddenly I'm kept away from my work for a few days or even a week.
My writing habits are completely dependent on my children. And while I would love to follow the motivational quotes encouraging writers to protect their writing time no matter what, I am a mother first and foremost.
If my rambunctious toddler wants to climb up on my lap and cuddle for a while, I can put aside my werewolves, witches, and other spooky characters and just be her Mommy.
I can put off becoming a prize winning novelist for a few years...
What I can't put off is being a Mother.